Good afternoon world... Woke up about 45 mins ago. Feeling quite down... Cedric messaged me last night at 1 plus to read Psalms 42 & 43... I'd read it before but its always good to be reminded.

Valentine's Day is coming... Its on the TV, in the newspapers, on the internet and on everyone's lips. Its getting under my skin. I want to do something for her but I don't to step out of under God's hand. Spending money won't be a problem because I still have Chinese New Year angpows to fall back on. Just don't want to do it if God doesn't give me the 'go ahead'. Anyway, I already have in mind what I want to do. I want to get 3 roses. 2 red ones and one white one. The red roses symbolising the two of us and the white one symbolising God. Kinda cheesy if you think about it. But its the truth. I've always wanted to serve God together with her. Its just that I couldn't get my priorities right.

Why is it people can't do things right the first time round? Why do they have to fall before realising their wrong? Will I get a second chance? Will God use us to show what a relationship based on Him can do? I think maybe God wants me to work on my life and putting Him first in my own life before I can be mature enough to put Him first in a relationship. The question is.... A relationship with whom?

::: Lyric of the Day :::
God I feel so useless
God I hate myself
When I try to get over you
I hate myself
Will I ever get over you

Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love

::: Verse of the Day :::
"But who are you, O man, to talk back to God?
Shall what is formed say to Him who formed it,
'Why did you make me like this?' " |Romans 9:20|